I will be the first to admit that I can be a big scaredy cat.
I was traumatized by horror flicks in my early adolescence and it left me scarred! Much like Freddie Krueger, whom I would protect myself from at night by lining my bed with stuffed animals. Somehow, in my skewed, traumatized mind, they would protect me. I also went to bed at like 7:30 to make sure I was asleep before my parents went to bed. It was all in the name of self-preservation.
I remember wearing make-up for the first time, in sixth grade. My BFF’s Angela and Melissa got all gussied up to go see a movie. Never mind that her parents were taking us. We were smokin, I tell you, with our blue eyeshadow and Big Bangs. Fast Forward about an hour. I started crying during the previews. Seriously, I was hysterical.
I ended up watching Splash with Melissa’s dad in the theater next door.
Pitiful.
Don’t get me started on my friend’s 8th grade sleepover. The Exorcist was the movie of the night.
I was in way over my head.
I totally just revisited my tortured mind of middle school with you and I am now remembering why.
I slept on the couch the last two nights.
No, my marriage is not on the rocks, or hurting.
In fact, because my hubs has been out of town the last two nights, I couldn’t sleep. In my bed.
Our current bedroom, without a bathroom or closet, is on the opposite side of the house, as the kids. So, I had run through all the scenarios of what would I do if….fire, break in, Freddie Krueger came and I convinced myself that running out the back door and breaking in the kids windows was not the best option for a good outcome of any of the above.
But, I did try to convince myself that I was a big scaredy cat and nothing was going to happen. I started in my bed both nights and it lasted about 5 minutes. Then, while on the couch, I heard all kinds of weird noises and needless to say, i got about 10 hours sleep combined.
Isn’t it crazy how our minds can play havoc with us? Create tension, drama, fear, where none exists? Here is a verse I have used to calm myself many a lonely night and have also taught the girls.
Psalm 91: 5
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
(really all of Psalm 91)
Proverbs 3: 24
when you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
I also like this one!
So, as you can imagine, I am ready for Jason to be home tonight.
Which is funny because he sleeps through a freight train, crying baby or any manner of storm. But, his presence is enough to calm my racing mind and find rest!
So, what are you afraid of?