I don’t even have the mental energy to come up with a catchy title! We have been in the thick of looking for a new house. We have looked at a lot of houses, in different areas of town, different sizes, price ranges, move in ready, need a lot of work, need an addition, and don’t need an addition. IT has proven to be a much tougher search than either of us anticipated.
But, I will say, we are putting quite a bit of expectations on ourselves. One, being a short mortgage, where we still have money to save and have somewhat of a life. J and I are on a little different wave length right now about what are top priorities are, which very much compounds the issue. One isn’t better than the other, they are just basically what appeals more to us.
As I reading the Word this morning, I came across this verse and it really summarizes what I feel like is going on with us right now.
Proverbs 17:3
The crucible for silver and the furnace for gold,
but the LORD tests the heart.
I know I am being tested in the area of the heart right now. I am really seeing where my priorities are and trying to determine if my words line up with my heart. Basically, can I really do what I have been saying we want to do? Can I live less now, so we can bless our children later and be freed up to give more than we have ever been able to? That sounds great in theory until I see what we are going to squeeze our family of 5 in to! It sounds selfish and superficial when you write it out, but these are the emotions I feel. My mind has analyzed, done all the pros and cons, weighted it all out. My head hurts and I am tired. But, I am seeking to see how God is going to reveal Himself to us. I know and trust that none of this takes Him by surprise, and even this small detail of our life has been planned out before the beginning of time!
My rest comes in the fact that my life is His to use. I may not like how that looks some time, but that is truly where my joy and purpose are found, as well as a lot of character building!
We have found a house that we like. It has a great yard, with trees and is over an acre. It is a remodeled 1970′s rancher, which appeals to me, tremendously. I can already see the changes we will make, which will include an addition and taking down some walls. There are compromises, but that’s just life.
keep you posted as it unfolds….