For the past few months, the areas of my life which I would label as “weaknesses” have really been rearing their ugly head! For the most part, I recognize that these just are not natural strengths that I have and have accepted it. You know put the “well God just gave me this personality and made me this way” label. In the past, I have just not really thought a whole lot more about it.
BUT, lately, I am seeing that some of those “weaknesses” are really just rebellion against doing something I don’t want to do. It is me being stubborn or passive aggressive or prideful.
I think having a third child has really brought these things to the forefront. Almost like I could hide them more readily with one or two kids, but bring on the third and I am exposed.
I think the difference this time, is that God is not cutting me any slack and His conviction has been swift, painful and has left me seeing things in a new light. I don’t want to settle anymore and shrug off those little things. I am seeing that He is continuing to prune and cut away all that does not honor Him.
Last night we talked about weaknesses at church. I saw again the beauty of God’s grace and mercy. Who else would use our weaknesses to make us strong. Who else would allow us to use those things that the world would label as weakness and turn it into something good and right. Who else would love us enough to never stop spurring us on towards His likeness. Sin left unchecked isn’t a minor infraction to God. It is outright, in your face, rebellion. He has given us such a rich promise in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10:
But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power
is made perfect in weakness.”
Therefore I will boast all teh more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s
power may rest on me.
That is why for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults,
in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong.